i'm not very good at staying active with this online journal thingie anymore. and to think i started doing this when I was 20. ha. seems so long ago now. still living at my parents' house, and i had just started working at CompUSA. things sure do change in a hurry. i didn't even have bills yet?!?!?! i wish i remember what that felt like, and then i might be able to appreciate it!

for like a good couple of months now, i've been listening to Jesu every night going to sleep. love it. I usually only get through 2 tracks or so before I'm passed out but I consider that a good thing.

SO... i guess a slight update is in order. I fixed my Xbox 360 and I'm proud of myself. I finally got a house phone and a digital cable box for my bedroom. Speaking of cable, I'm getting sent to training so I can be promoted to tech 4 at work, and that's at the beginning of January. For a number of reasons, I've also made the decision that I'm gonna look into transferring from Chester County to Montgomery County once I get the pay raise for tech 4. The major factors influencing this are basically that I can't stand about 90% of the decisions upper management has been making to "solve" any "problems" we have as techs... basically every decision entailing more time being put into each job without allocating any more time for us to do it. The long and short of the expectations they have are that they are impossible to meet. So, fuck it, I'll transfer to Montco, where I'll be a lot closer to home anyway, which is the other determining factor in transferring. I can work in the system that I live in. No more driving an hour to Downingtown just to clock in. Or out, for that matter. I can get to the Plymouth Meeting office in about 20 minutes, so that shaves more than an hour of drive time off of every day. We'll see if this all comes to fruition, but currently, that's the plan.

My #1 plan should really be improving my sleep habits... i'm obviously rather behind on that, but in light of it, I'm going to bed.

gah

the naivety astounds me

This is the stage of disturbing yet necessary realizations. In a way, it's encouraging because I feel that it's a step in the right direction.

Last night I went to see Isis at the Troc with Brian and Matt and we ended up running into Brendan, Rocky, and John Lowe there too. I'm glad I finally got to see that band live. I was long overdue.

So yeah, then Brian, Matt, and I caught up with Jason and Jaime and her friends since it was her birthday and they were partying it up in Olde City. I always feel so out of my element around there, mostly because i slip into introvert mode. We went to this one bar and it was so ridiculously loud but it wasn't bad. After a couple drinks I was really starting to enjoy myself there. I almost... almost even got up the nerve to talk to a girl. [holy shit] But then we left because Jaime's friend's boyfriend decided it would be a good idea to go to Club 27. What a retarded decision. $5 cover, $2 to check in my coat, $8 for a jack and coke. Brian got a gin and tonic that cost him $16. And I wasn't even attracted to a single person there. Well, I was 4 beers and a shot deep before we even got there so I didn't have to blow any additional money on drinks, thank god. So Brian, Matt and I left, had a cheesesteak (a fuckin GOOD cheesesteak), and then we went to Nick's place. We smoked something there that was much more potent than I had prepared myself for, so I was good and wrecked. Shouldn't have driven all the way home, but I did.

I overdid it last night, but I think I need more nights like that in my life right now... just within reason. Just, right now, trying to deal with being recently out of a very involved relationship, I need to go out where there's people. I can't rely on just work and practice every day. It's not distracting enough. I need something new in my life. I still have new experiences to go through and I haven't really taken any steps to alleviate that. I think this is my one chance to finally decide to come out of my shell. Now it's just a question of whether or not I have the balls to do it.

God damn... jealousy is a bitch.

didn't party. i'm pretty sure it was a smart move since i'm exhausted anyway.

wow.... apparently it's 34 degrees out right now. no fun

chillin. debating whether or not to go to a party. regretting cancelling previous plans. me = retard. i find myself in this situation a lot lately.

so it's really looking like i'm not gonna have enough to money to pay both my electric bill at home and rent at the studio. this is not good.

i want to go out tonight but i have to be up at 5 AM for work. if i don't go out i'll probably regret it. if i go out i'll probably regret it. gah

shitty. this is gonna be rough.

ok since it has been a year and a half, i figure this needs an update. i'm sure everyone stopped reading this but i'll post this for my own benefit to look back on later anyway.

I've been an in-house tech for comcast since January 06. It's ok... could definitely be at a worse job, but the hours tend to blow. working sunday-thursday and getting up at 5 everyday and not getting home until 5 or so usually, and then there's the on-call days that are on average a 15-hour work day. i've been doing decently there so i'm getting promotions and raises and crap but it's hard to get excited about since I have exactly zero intention of staying there. which brings me to what I AM planning on doing...

Opened a new studio in Hatboro, PA this past June. It's a studio but it's more of a multimedia community of sorts. I got the building along with Brett and Greg Kull from MM3/Farmhouse Studio, the same place that recorded the never-released Trace Fury EP "Along Your Ocean." Anyway, Brett has a studio there, I have a studio there, and Greg has an office where he does video editing and all sorts of stuff. On top of that, Nick Steinborn is renting a suite there where he has his own little audio editing room and he rents time to do tracking himself, and we have another guy there who does graphic design in another suite. It's very promising and very exciting but very expensive too. I'm having a lot of trouble keeping my financial head above water and I expect it to be that way for a good while. This is why I haven't quit Comcast yet. I need to wait until I'm sure that I can be self-sufficient at the studio. My goal is to have accomplished that before the end of 2008.

Band update: still playing with Leavenworth on occasion... pretty rarely, but it's still fun when we all have the chance to get together. We all have other things going on at the same time though, with Dave's other bands, Keevil being a marine, my job/Cetus, Jay's water polo, and Nick's dump. The only band I've been playing with regularly is Cetus, and even that was getting out-of-hand lazy. The difference is that things have actually started to happen with Cetus a little bit. We're about to sign a contract to an independent label that's gonna release the full length that we've been "finished" with for more than 2 years. So we're gonna actually start playing shows and doing small road trips regularly with the intention of picking it up more and more. We're all excited to actually start to give this thing a shot because we all believe in it.


Ok I'll write more later, but I'm going to see Into the Wild.

Current Music: Minus The Bear - The Fix

Well... my last entry was posted nearly a year and a half ago. I guess it's a good a time as any to resurrect this thing. Even though I really don't like the idea of venting online anymore, I might have to a little bit in the near future... not sure who i really feel comfortable talking to about this crap. To spare anyone who might read this, I'll do my best to keep any bitching or whining posts as succinct as possible.

... well, in the self-imposed tradition of using this journal primarily for hockey talk, let me just say that the Flyers are damn fun to watch right now, and I'm looking forward to putting an A on my Richards jersey. That is all. I'll post a more detailed update of the goings-on in my life in the near future.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: "A Natural Disaster" - Anathema